Ha, bah on superficial people...
A man notices a peculiar rash on his chest. The rash continues to get worse and worse, so the man decides to see a doctor. He goes to a clinic, where the staff run some tests on him. After several minutes, the doctor comes back in the room and says, "Sir, I've got good news and bad news. Which would you like first?" "Well," says the man, "I can take it. Give me the bad news first."
"The rash you have is going to get worse. It will travel throughout your body, eventually making it to your internal organs. It is a terminal disease, and my guess is you have 30 days to live." "My God!" says the patient. "What's the good news?!?"
"Well," says the doctor, "Did you see that beautiful receptionist, the one with the big boobs and the nice butt? I'm dating her!"
...Shallowness is suddenly quite hilarious at this hours to me.
Well, i'm a big loser. "We knew that," you say as the humble readers of this fine publication, but hold on as i explain. Recently my life can be summarized in one word: BLAH. It's sad, i've lost all motivation to do work, it just seems like i've worked hard for 3 and a half years, i am done; But, now is not the time to screw up. knowing me, i will. My parental authority has been pretty good about letting me do stuff lately, but it's mainly me that's the problem. You see, as my college applications get filled out and sent, i am now kinda just sitting here, waiting for the decisions...to come in like May. That is a big question mark, and recently, i can't really enjoy myself when i'm out because of that question mark always lurking in the back of my mind. I've put forth so much effort in this college preparation process that now that it's coming, i'm impatient about it, and i want to know what's going on. It sucks much ass. When i'm out with girls, i can't really find myself relaxed because a lil voice is saying in my mind "What if you dont get into so and so college?" I know it's really weird, but you have no idea how much it sucks. For example, last night, i went over to Dan's to chill...the whole time, the company was good and we were just kinda taking it easy, but towards the end of the night, i just all of a sudden felt like i couldn't be there. It just bothered me that i was doing something unproductive at the moment (i know i know, its weird cuz i never do much productive things anyways). But it's just i feel guilty for being out having fun, when i've been used to doing work for school, ebay, or college apps. And it makes it especially hard since i dont have a college decision yet. If i know exactly where i'm going, then I can go all out, party, and enjoy 100% of it. As it stands, it really blows. Another thing, today, i had 3 chances to go out and chill / have fun with, and it's not like i couldn't because i know my mom would've been like "ummmm, oh alright" since she knows there's nothing much i can do but wait. But i said no all three times, i dunno why, but i just wasn't in the mood to be out. And it's stupid cuz i know i would be having a blast, and i feel bad for not going with the people that cared enough to invite me, but for some reason I still stayed home and here i am blogging. BAH. Now i'm gonna go find something entertaining, and hopefully enjoy it.